Be there when your kidney hurts or your back aches, to hold you when you want to burst into tears and remind you how much sleeping all the time is awesome, I only get to comfort you in the twilight of consciousness and sleep, that ethereal time where everything is perfect, because reality hasn’t sunk in yet, and we are just in each others arms.
I have to accept that it is all I can ever have, and it pains me, to leave that bed, to leave those arms to bare a cruel world
You miss me when there is so much distance between us we can talk but not hear, view but now see, and breathe but not say
You’re going to miss me when these walls come up, and I shy from you for sake of my heart
Your never going to miss me at all.
that everytime i see you, im happy
and everytime i see you, i remember im just a distraction
I didn’t think her exiting my life would hurt this much, but at the same time, its for the better, I just have to keep repeating it to make it true, right?
is astounding, but not nearly as amazing as the world in our minds
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Never Forget Your Roots.
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i’ve always wondered things. ive always felt like i thought about things differently than others. The more that times passes i realize more that i was right and wrong, i don’t think of things differently, i think of things DIFFERENTLY. Its hard to describe, but i wonder about things people normally shouldn’t, be normal social standards, think about. I wonder about my own death constantly, how things would feel, about how i would react in a car crash, how i would, above all others, where they all would fail, how i would be different, and would survive, and how as much as i want to be that person, i would be just like the others. I don’t really know to be honest. I just know that i’m a bit off, and that’s why i’m always alone in a group. I’m a musician, and i’m pretty successful at it so far, and even in my own group, my family, my lifeblood, i’m invisible. I could change it, i could make myself known, but i don’t. I don’t find the energy, the want or desire to put out the effort involved. But i want them to notice me. Maybe i’m just lazy, but in my mind its different. I my mind, if they don’t notice me, i’m not worth noticing to begin with. If im not invited somewhere, they didn’t want me there to begin with, so trying to change that means i’m pushing myself into a situation where i wasn’t wanted to begin with, and not being wanted is something that depresses me severely, not being needed and desired. It’s annoying and sad. I don’t really understand myself most the time. My thoughts don’t allow me to stay in one place at one time, not mentally. That’s why music fits me so well. I’m always moving so i don’t think, not as much.
This is me. This will be where my ramblings go. Don’t expect greatness
